Wow...I have a lot to be Thankful for... I got to go on an incredible Journey ...A Journey to Self it may seem like a short Journey to you but I still don't remember the first 9 years of my life. I do NOT want to open that Pandora's Box.
It may happen and God help me when it does... The knowledge that I still have something in my past that my brain couldn't handle back then, is the catalyst to figure out who I really am. Knowledge is key for me to not take drugs...I am not on any medications... I need to bear with the pain or be doped up on drugs that are popping up on list of suits involving recalls/ dangerous drugs...Vioxx, Bextra, Celebrex, Neurontin, Oxycontin, those are the names of the drugs I know they gave me the physicians I mean... I really do feel like a guinea pig....
I'm no longer trying to help my friend, I've been up here for a couple weeks now...And still have stress in my life...My days and night's are all screwed up I left there in a panic mode. My friend is setting himself up to lose everything... But can't see beyond the alcoholic nightmare he lives in. I'm not going to feel bad about my choice to leave. That was the wisest choice for me. I do feel awful, gut wrenching awful that I can't help my friend... It was much too dangerous living there.... So I am functioning in classic PTSD form... I do have several friends at the moment who I can count on to talk me through some things... So anyway it is time for me to get back into this... This healing of me through writing...Til the next time Happy Thanksgiving and have a Blessed Day
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Leaving Jimmy and the chaos was a good thing..He is doing alright, he evicted all those people out of his house and has a new lady in his life. He is setting boundaries and not drinking....Yeah Jimmy!! :)
Jim took me in when I had no place to go during the last stages of my breakdown. I was losing it and he helped me get help. For that I will be eternally greatful.
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