Sunday, May 30, 2004

"Brand New Morning"

Dear Friends,
I know you'll be dismayed after reading this post, but I am OK. I need to find another place to stay and don't have a clue as to where to go. I don't have enough money to get an apartment but do have enough to buy a tent. I have camped before and I can do it again. I won't be able to access my email as regular as I have in the recent past.
I received a copy of Bob Segers music one in particular has given me hope for the future. It seems as I need a "Brand New Morning" . The lyrics can be found at Segerfile.com, part of the lyrics refers to the past and the past being ancient history. I am a member of Segernet.com, which was an effort to get Bob Seger into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. (He made it this year!) Through Segernet I have learned a lot about myself, my inferiority complex caused some real problems in the beginning. I was really new to the computer and didn't understand it. I was stressed out, going through some classes for Domestic Violence. A friend of mine wrote an article for the Chicken Soup series about me and it was accepted. I wrote about it at segernet which really wasn't an appropriate forum to write about it. When I was asked not to write about DV I reacted in a classic PTSD response when I got Gateway timeouts I thought I had been banned for my reaction. I wasn't but I told my son who reacted to it as an insult to his mother. The problems was, there was no problem, my son wouldn't back down and was eventually banned. I regretted the whole thing, but decided to remain a member to learn.
It took me several months to figure out what a gateway timeout was, and when I finally did I felt like an idiot. I'm not, of course I've learned a lot from the whole incident, about computers, Bob Seger, and an important lesson in not jumping to conclusions.
So when my friend asked me to find another living arrangement, because her niece is here with her family, my initial reaction was to jump to a conclusion. I haven't done anything wrong. It's just time for me to go. So I will figure something out, I always do, God is with me, and has a plan. "It's a Brand New Morning, It's a Brand New Day"

1 comment:

Shell said...

Bob Seger

"Winners, losers and small time misusers
do what they must on their own
Lovers, dreamers and beautiful schemers
all take the long way home
some have their reasons
some lose their way
they all want so much to succeed
how do you tell them apart
the best of them leave with their hearts
Now that it's summer
I went to the river
the water was never too cold
always together through all kinds of weather
we took the long way home
she was the best
I ever knew
somehow she drifted away
Now that I'm older
the nights seems much colder
I spend too much time alone
sometimes in summer
I kept thinking of her
and I'll take the long way home
I'll still take the long way home"