The Power of Negative Thinking

Negative thinking comes from years of seeing myself as a failure. I was told I wouldn't amount to anything and I lived it. Its like this, if someone mentions an apple what do you picture? I nice shiny bright crisp apple? I picture a mushy one with a worm poking it's head out. I learned about the force of "positive thinking" back in 1996 my first trip to the hospital. I still struggle with the concept daily and in the past week or so I forgot about it totally. I began to see the worm in every situation, not letting myself picture myself as a "success" is my catalist to failure.
While traveling I seemed to not be so negative but in all reality I was basically in survival mode. While not dwelling on the real issues in my life for a minute was nice the down time that I have had since coming here reminds me that I still think in negative patterns. My friends used to say " Michelle why are you so negative all the time?" My response would be "What do you mean I'm not negative." I wasn't able to see that by talking about not being able to stand up and succeed I was setting myself up to fail.
My goals for the week:
Read the Information from A Ticket to Work Disibility
make contacts with prospective resources
Think Positively Identify when the thinking returns to negative nonproductive chatter
"ATTA GIRL"